Your big brother David was officially sworn into the United States Army on 7-7-11 at 2:00pm. We are all so proud of him. He should start bootcamp in February/March of 2012. He would have loved for you both to be there, he wears his bracelets always holding your memory tight and close to his heart. We all love and miss you both so much!
On Thursday evening, I was missing you so much, Daddy took me to the cemetery to spend a little time with you, it was dark but he parked the truck so the lights would shine on you. I fixed your flowers, they had both fallen over since the vases were temporary and I wiped your stones and cried some tears. I just miss you both so much.
Friday, 4-22-11 we had planned to decorate your gardens for Easter, Tia Cyndy, Tia Christie, Nana, your sister’s Sammy and Liz, brother Jose, cousin Emily and nephews Mason and Landon came to help. We planned a nice picnic to sit with you and enjoy the afternoon. As we arrived, I was so surprised to see your butterfly stones had been installed that morning. What a beautiful surprise for all of us. You should know that we will never let your gardens be bare, I will make sure that your are surrounded by flowers, angels and butterflies. I love you so much, I can’t wait to be with you someday and give you all the hugs and kisses that I dream of giving you now. Daddy and I talk about you both often and have so many memories of you around us. We surround ourselves with pink and purple, butterflies everywhere and have angels all around us. I know you are both here with us in our hearts. I pray for God to give me strength, I know this will never get easier. MOMMY AND DADDY LOVE YOU, HAPPY EASTER 2011.
My little M&M - Madisela Monica,
Mommy and Daddy love you so much it hurts. I so wish I would have seen you alive. I'm so thankful daddy was there with you to hold you and kiss you and tell you how much we both love you. Daddy held you till you were in Jesus' arms my baby girl, please know how much I would have given anything to be there with you. You are my perfect shining star, the truest ANGEL of them all and my true love. I would give anything to just kiss you one time before you left home to above. You are so beautiful, so perfect. I will never know why you came early, only God will know and we have to trust in him. I never miss a minute of any day not thinking of you. My life is surrounded by purple butterflies for you my precious love. You are the love of my life. I loved seeing you in the white dress with a purple neck line. Only God knew that I had decorated your baby bed in purple and your sisters in pretty pink but yet, there you were laying so perfect in your pretty dress with purple! Your Tia Moni whom you were named after bought you the most perfect dress that your Grandma altered so it would fit your tiny perfect body. It was a white dress with purple lace at the top and bottom, you were dressed in a beautiful tierra with a butterfly on the top, and tiny booties made just for you with little purple ribbons. You entered your kingdom more perfect than any ANGEL there. Mommy and Daddy love you so much, I know you are smiling down on us and playing with your sister Abigail. Please forgive me my love, I promise we did everything right and would give anything for you to be in my arms right now! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. TILL THEN........ mommy & daddy.
